You know, people always use to tell me as a kid, that I would know my home when the time was right, yet they always told me, home is where the heart is, I have family all over, so I have my heart is all over, the bad part of that is, because my heart is broken and all over with family, I feel like home when with family, but no where truly shouted "Stop You're Home!!" till this Sat a few hours ago. As I drove from Muskogee, I watched my boyfriend Jordan leave my rear view mirror, I went to a friend's house, Casey's and joined into a chat with him and some friends I made from the new anime club I went to, Dark Fox Anime Club, I had to leave and while I was driving out of Muskogee and looking back at it in the rearview mirror, I finally got the chance to think, to listen to myself without anyone else to talk me in or out of anything.  I pulled over and cried like I always did when leaving Muskogee alone, I found myself fighting the need to turn about and go back to Muskogee to join my new friends and Dark Fox family, to go back to that small like, yet wide spread town, to go back to Jordan and the friends I learned to like, for once in my life, the one I wanted so badly happened, I just wish it had come that much sooner, I finally felt something scream and pull at me, Muskogee was crying out to pull me back to everyone, for once, I FINALLY felt a place scream "Home" and I can't wait to go back, though I know when I leave Muskogee again, I will be in tears feeling like I left home again. I miss you all.